Sunday, September 20, 2009

Weighty Issues

So, this past week the new season of Biggest Loser started. I will be following it, it is always inspirational to me to watch. I really got to thinking alot. All the sob stories. Abby who has lost her family, Shay who at 476 pounds, is the biggest contestant ever. The majority of them all had certain events trigger thier food addicition. I do not have an addiction, I just have a lack of discipline. Ill admit it. I started this year out with the highest of expectations............I have fallen soo short. Everything I have set out to do, every goal I had hoped to complete for myself has fallen by the wayside as far as my diet and loosing weight are concerned. I guess i need to look at the bright side, I have lost 20 pounds, and that is more than i have been able to lose in 9 years.............its not alot but it certainly a start. I have reached two conclusions in the past few days:
I have been fat all of my life. Its a part of me that i am afraid to lose. I dont know if I will like the new,physically improved person i may become because i dont know that person..............Now, i dont think i would go getting all self centered and stuff. I have never been that way, its not me. But what if? I like myself just the way i am..............why change?Other than the health aspects of it, why else?
The second conclusion i have come to is that I dont want something drastic to have to happen to make me get my butt in gear. Being a death or some other form of tragedy................and thats about all i can say without crying...............
I set a goal for myself at the beginning of this year, but what i failed to do was set other mini goals to work up to that goal.So here are a few of my mini goals i am setting up for myself the rest of the year:
no more caffeine(it stunts weight loss) and not to mention it depletes your calcium
exercise for at least 15 minutes once a day(will work up to more gradually)
no eating after seven PM. This one will be the most difficult, I think.
I would also like to knock out breads and pastas. I dont eat a whole lot of them, but when i do, they really mess with me.
These are just a few goals. I have attempted these before and failed. i would do them for about 2-3 weeks and then scratch it off my list and then continue back to the same thing as always.
Wish me luck, as i will you in all of you weight loss endeavors. Together we can do it =D


  1. I can totally relate to you and your feelings. I have set countless goals and every time I seem to fail. I will have faith in you and we can motivate each other!

  2. I am with you there :) I am learning it is the small goals you need to set and achieve in order for the big goal to be reached. I too have pretty much failed at the goals I set for myself this year in the weight area but the year isn't over and we can both still make a better effort at taking care of ourselves and reaching some of the small goals!